The color of confusion
Friday, September 28, 2007 at 9:37PM Hey guys,
What's up? I've been feel really out of sorts really. Almost like I am leading a weird double life, but not for a cool reason [like a secret agent or something]. At least I am kinda worn out like it. Ugh.
Anyway, I wrote an impromptu poem tonight and I thought I would share it with y'all. I guess the best way to describe my mood is as this; many factions of my life are right where I want them, whereas other parts just are so far from what I expected. I guess that is all part of being in your early 20s, but I am having one of those times where I am not enjoying it. With my new job starting on Monday, I really feel like this is the next chapter in my life. I just wish the other departments could catch up. In any case, here it is as an abstract. Enjoy!:
When I looked up at the sun,
I wondered if it would ever shine again.
Once that was full of color
Now resembled a fabricated spark
Brilliant in orange, yellows, and reds
The fire of my yesteryear
Instead embalmed in the cold blue moon
Lacking desire, luster, a life of its own.
I felt the breeze superficially,
It weaved right through my limbs.
My feet were on the ground,
Nevertheless, I could not feel the earth between my toes
The water was blue from a distance,
As I moved closer, it was undefined
Nothing other than a transparent mass
A wretched waste of time
I longed for the feeling of solidarity
Of belonging in nature
It recognizing me as one of its own
Revealing its color to me, just once more.
I've been writing poetry for many years now, and won some stuff when I was in high schol/college for it. I don't think this is an award winner, but it's good to just pen down thoughts at times. How are you all doing?
:)N
Reader Comments (3)
There seems to be a lot of this going around lately. Been going through a little of it myself. Nobody ever talks about the quarter life crisis, but it does happen. Sounds like you're doing really well though. Congrats on the new job. Keep writing poetry. You've definitely got a flare for the literary. You'll be out of the woods before you know it.
Neha,
This is a great poem. Lots of description. It made me want to read it twice.
I hope everything is well with you :) You will rock out on Monday!! I am so proud of you.
Good luck on monday, the poems good, I feel shity lately, been beatin by life, but I keep thinking to myself, at least I'm alive, Good luck friend.